Josh just casually tweets about walking around New York with Sweeney and I’m here, miles away, wondering why the women of NY aren’t flocking to the streets to swoon him.
Photo source: A screen cap of his Twitter page made by me.
Well, maybe not perfect in the dictionary sense or even the Biblical sense but for many women (myself included), he’s got qualities about him that makes him perfect in what us girls want in a guy. Hey, we’re not asking for an adonis…we’re just asking for a humble, funny, and intelligent guy who isn’t afraid to show his softer side on occasion.
True story: I was going to walk the dog and I had such a bad anxiety attack that I had to leave my sister to do it by herself. I went home and I just blasted up every Josh song I have on iTunes and truth be told, it worked much better than any anti-anxiety medication I took.
So yeah, Josh’s music is the new Xanax.
Last year was tough for me. I lost a beloved relative and then a good friend. Then I was diagnosed with a disorder that very few doctors know enough about to treat properly (Fibromyalgia) and some of my family turned against me because of trivial reasons. This year picked up where last year left off when several family members took a thought I had out of context and thought it was an attack on others in my family, so they stopped speaking to me. It stung because these were the kids of the aunt who died last year and I basically stuck by them through out it all.
It was like the only thing that kept me going was Josh’s music and the love of my fellow Grobanites. I was very close to committing suicide a couple of times. The first time my mom opened the door to my room and it distracted me. The second time, I heard Brave and it made me think that I need to hold on. I even want to get a tattoo inspired by that song (much to the dismay of my sister).
I’m going to see Josh in concert for the first time in November when he comes to Philadelphia. I know the opportunity might not come for me to tell him that he was my angel when I needed one the most but just knowing that I get to live to see that concert is enough for me.
In one year, I had to face my demons from being bullied from the time I was a child until my mid-30s. I also lost some people in my life that I wish I didn’t. My therapist tells me that I may have PTSD. Through it all, I listened to every Josh CD I have and frankly I don’t think I could have made it through these 12 months without his music.
Because no one ever picked up on the deformation that’s causing a vertebra in my back to fall out of alignment, I have had very awful back pain to where not even having my back supported helps when I sit. I did notice, however, that if I have my iPod on and it’s playing Josh’s music, I can sit still. Yes, I’m still hurting but at least I don’t think much about it.
If I’m ever having a bad day, all I need to do is log onto Twitter and read his tweets. Anyone who isn’t following him on Twitter doesn’t know what they are missing.
I don’t know what it is but I always loved the “kid at heart” thing. Probably because I’m like that. In fact, I would have probably challenged him to a Big Wheel race. ;)
My sister always calls me a nerd. Recently when Josh said in an interview that he takes great pride in being a nerd, I was happy. Now I don’t feel so bad when my sister calls me a nerd.